| I believe to my soul, you aught to know |
[Oct. 10th, 2008|04:19 pm] |
What am I going to leave in life for others to remember me by.
Not a painting, or a trust fund. I definatly can not draw. Unless you count perfect little snails drawn with out picking up your pencil. I guess I'll start saving my money. ha
Or do you want to remember me.
Do i live my life significant enough for you to hold any sort of interest in me. Why should you.
Ill try write a story next time. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 7th, 2008|01:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Mom's house | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  but a good Anxious | ] |
Its been to long live journal..
I'm in the middle of filling out this effing FAFSA thing and trying to answer these questions the best way possible to squeeze the most money out or the government, is making my head hurt and I’m kind of anxious. So update on my life as of today. I’m finally making the decision of going back to school and following through with the actions to make this happen. It’s funny because right when i feel comfortable with my life and I’m finally settled into Huntington Beach, I jump to move somewhere else and Im happy with this decision. I guess i don’t need stability right now. Or i guess stability isn't the right word. I have stability. Wonderful place to live, 15 min bike ride from either Newport or Huntington pier, the best random roommates anyone could ask for and an orange and grapefruit tree in the back yard. I have a wonderful relationship with my family, I’m back in the circle of trust with my grandparents, I’m helping my mom by just being around and giving her support in everything that she does, and my younger sisters are growing to pretty, damn smart ladies. New silveryblue Hybrid Civic!! OO I did just quit my job though! I now work at Landmark Steakhouse and Nightclub. www.landmarknewport.com as a coordinator. I have to get use to the snobby supa rich people who live in Carona Del Mar. But my coworkers are fabulous and the Filet and scallops are to diiiee for. That’s Thursday, Friday, Saturday. On Monday thru Wednesday I work at GreenPeace, the Biggest environment organization in the world. I am a Fundraiser coordinator/ activist (kinda) but i start that on Monday so ill see exactly what ill be doing. but I that’s it for now See ya in August SANTA CRUZ!!! |
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| Every Day is like Sunday |
[Jul. 28th, 2006|03:37 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lisa LIsa and the Cult JAM | ] |
IN HB
dont stop till sunrisee |
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| This isnt personal |
[Apr. 23rd, 2006|11:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  high | ] |
Ive never been so content with someone knocking a person out then today. Yet again this person doesnt need anything else to fuck up his head. The worst thing to see happen to a person is really having something great and completly losing it all by themselves. People will never no exactly how great they have it until its gone.
and that just sucks
Coal just jumped over the table to get to the couch it was kinda incredible... |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|09:07 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dimmu Borgir | ] |
so latly its been wayy rough and but then again there are those great times.. I miss the old days... when everything seemed soo easy. i miss my friends. I miss the captain mo and cactus cooler. before the bub, the closet, or amandas black car. The lazy days at the theater, and chumash park. Before the ditch and exspecially before N.P.
...alright? |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 30th, 2005|03:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Warren G-Regulaters | ] |
a funny thing happened to me today...
when i got school i figured out that i left my binder in jessica's car. i called and called and texted her but she didn't reply. i went to lynsi's house to wait for jessica's reply because she wasn't at school. Then Lynsi and i went to broadway and left my keys in the ignition but i couldn't call my house because they would have gotten mad that i was ditching first period. so at lunch I went to broadway and i got my keys. but i didn't turn my car completely off so my car wouldn't turn on. my cell phone died earlier and i didn't have a way to call anyone.
i walked to lynsi's house and broke in (aka went through the back door) to use her phone. i called everyone who's numbers i could remember and NO ONE ANSWERED. but Eric came and saved me. we get back and try and start it and i won't start. he had this batterey thing with only one side of jumper cables. He noticed that there was an automotive place right across the street so we went there to get regular cables. those didn't work either. i remembered that i was on empty and had been on it for a while. anything was worth a try at this point. we walked to a gas station and eric bought me a gallon of gas we put it in and well my car started.... first of all I know nothing about cars and i guess Eric doesn't either haha |
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| With Gorilla Gone, Will There Be Hope For Man? |
[Nov. 28th, 2005|05:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Interpolantics | ] |
first time i have written on this thing in about six months..
i stayed home from school today because i didn't get any sleep last night even though i took abunch of NyQuil... I think i am ammune to it now. woke up at about 12 thinking about where my parking permit is. All i have been doing today is reading Ishmael by Daniel Quinn Probably one of the best books i have ever read. I really doint want to go back to school |
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| Ain't no party like a west coast party! |
[May. 16th, 2005|03:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Gwen Stafani | ] |
Best Birthday weekend EVER!!!!
Went out to dinner with the Folks and Aaron. Micheala picked us up and drove to San Frnsisco. It was the stoniest trip ever. It was in saneeeeee!!! that night we partied at Marks house then in the morning took the bart to Market street and shopped. we looked at prom stuff and pipes hahahha. drove home and made an urgant stop at lynsis (?0 Were they planned a surprixe birthday party! We ate a bunch and the cake some how feel on the ground but it was awesome! Sunday i had the entire house to my self so aaron came over and we went crazy.
did i mentioin i got a cell phone YEAH i know now i am cool
call me hahhaha: 709-3011
and my birthday is in 2 days.... |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 4th, 2005|05:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Shitty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mindless Self Indulgence | ] |
My birthday is in 14 days and i am not quite sure what i am going to do
I need a job really really bad. And alot of people think that i am to Lazy/whiny to work at most of the places
SATs this weekend and i am screwed but after that i might go to San Frans and see Mark!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 29th, 2005|09:37 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Interpol | ] |
why does everything have to start going to shit right at the end? |
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| "I love boobies"-Jessica |
[Apr. 7th, 2005|07:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cranky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Third Days Grace (?) I hate everything about you | ] |
today was very fun until the end.
it was a half day. Amanda, Aaron, Brad, and I went to burrito loco. then went to San luis to the sub
i with I was 18 soo i go and look at all the paraphernalia....sometimes
I past out on the way home from Slo and then dropped aaron off
we then went to the park with lynsi
got candy and Evian water and went home
i need a car and a cellphone and weed
AND A DANM JOB
minus the weed |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 5th, 2005|01:30 pm] |
I love jessica.
She is my wife.
I adore her. |
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| sippin on gin and juice |
[Mar. 29th, 2005|09:52 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | high | ] |
| [ | music |
| | yeah yeah yeahs | ] |
...from the partys to the drama
going to get my nails down with lynzi and Micheala and hopefully buying Bambi today...
church retreat this weekend..don't know what i am going to do
then spring break wil be over : ( |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 14th, 2005|08:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mars Volta | ] |
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
01. Rachael
02. Razzle
03. R-Dunk!!!
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
01.i like to read
02. i enjoy bike rides
03. when my hair feels soft
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
01. i am really really lazy
02. i always seem to come home past my curfew
03. i eat alot
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
01. Scottish
02. everyting else
03. asian (i wish)
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
01. falling out of bed
02. my grand parents
03. every morning when i think about school
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
01. money
02. food
03. aaron, lynsi, Jessica, andy, micheala
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
01. sweat pants
02. white tank top
03. jessica's emo jacket
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS or artists AT THE MOMENT:
01. belle and sebastion
02. the killers
03. The Decmberists
THREE THINGS YOU WOULD WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
01. aaron
02. aaron
03. aaron
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
01. Get a job
02. take my nails off from winter formal
03. Save my money
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
01. riding bikes
02. watching movies
03. listening to music
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
01. ride bikes
02. leave my house
03. yamatoes
THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
01. Italy
02. Canada
03. Japan
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
01. Get married
02. ride a bike across the U.S. with mcheala
03. travel around the world |
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| Because Jessica you are my God... |
[Mar. 10th, 2005|06:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  jubilant | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Killers | ] |
So I am going to attempt to write a poem for jessica..
Jessica my love
Ill make you a dove (in the nursery)
I owe you one
you seriuolsy weigh a ton
but your still wayy hot
we don't like to hang out in a parking lot
i love american history
even though Garzas jokes are a mystery
this doen't make a whole lot of sense
but lets got to lopez and sleep in tents
we will get really fucked up
and drink wine in a plasic cup
we like to have raves
you likes to surf really big waves
.......did you know rave is a Synonym with love
ok i am done.. i won't forget the dove |
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| only once |
[Feb. 14th, 2005|08:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  loved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Moving Units | ] |
Valentines day is kinda strange.... but today was great. I am definatly not complaining.
♥ |
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| HELLA... haha i love that word |
[Feb. 3rd, 2005|07:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Grandaddy | ] |
today was soo much fun since it was a half day
Lynsi and aaron and i went to jaclyn's house and had a party with way to many sandwhiches and danm good tea.
We went to san luis only to get foster freeze and laughed soo hard we almost threw up the gigantic icecream things we had.
Then went to shell beach. to this awesome beach by spyglass and i pretended to be like ariel when the water splashes over the rocks. i must say it was pretty awesome.
oh shoot i forgot the part about when we went to this pet store and looked all the pupies and bunnie rabbits. and also freaked out about the minature turtles and really big snakes.
then the day suddenly lost all its fun becuase i had to go home
since then i have done nuthing else but go one the computer and eat sushi and razzberrys |
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| lock me in my room..... FOREVER |
[Jan. 9th, 2005|06:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Belle and Sebastian | ] |
so here it is....
from now on i am staying home....
no more unnecessary drama on saturday nights and no more fighting for a longer curfew
ONLY outings include:
going to see movies
and eating good food
AND being with sober, respectful people
The End |
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| SAVE ME!! |
[Dec. 21st, 2004|09:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pixies | ] |
so ya....
I am in Huntington Beach right now sicker than i have been in such along time. IT SUCKS!! my little sisters birthday is tommarow and we are going to see that one movie.... the something Snickets one....
Last night was great though... Micheala and Aaron called me last night and they were soooo drunk it was hilariuos!! Aaron and i talked for soo long it was insane. I guess when we were talking he walked to some cabbage field and got lost at like 1 in the morning. It was quite funny.
christmas is in 4 days i think. For some reason i am not excided as usual. I haven't talk to Jessica in a while and all I want to do is go home and drink wine with her (danm i sound like and alcoholic but its true)
well i miss everyone SO MUCH and hopefully I will be home soon |
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